Wallace’s Story

Kris says:  Wallace submitted the following story.

“All sorrows could be borne if we tell a story about them or write them down”

Isak Dinesen

To blog critics and all others who assert that bringing these issues to the light somehow undermines or weakens the cause of Christ, we would say the behavior of some in the leadership of Sovereign Grace Ministries does far more damage to victims of abuse and to a watching world.

We share our story with the hope that those with similar experiences will be encouraged to write their own and bring it to the light.

My wife posted numerous times on the Survivor blog under the name “Happymom.”

We left the Sovereign Grace Fairfax church in May 2007 because of the overbearing emphasis on personal sin and the cross.

During 12 years as members of the Fairfax church, two of our children were sexually molested by two different people who attended the church.  The molestations did not occur on church property.  We had completely forgiven the perpetrators.   However, the subsequent mental and spiritual anguish we endured both times in dealing with members of the Fairfax staff motivate us to write and “tell it to the church.”

Here is a brief description of how Fairfax has in the past typically handled sex abuse issues in their church.   This depiction can be affirmed by numerous former members who have had similar experiences.   The perpetrator of a sex crime and his family were brought under the care of a pastor.   This would involve counseling, accountability sessions and possible minor restrictions regarding movement in the church during services.   People “at risk” were not notified.   The victim and victim’s family however were usually confronted with opposition from leadership by minimizing and/or invalidating particular aspects of the victim’s story.

In 1998, we discover our child (child-A) had been molested by a young man attending the Fairfax church.  We did not press charges and regretted this later on.  The father of the young man was initially uncooperative in dealing with the situation until Steve Shank stepped in to handle it.  This took place during the time frame Benny Phillips was stepping down from leadership.  Steve Shank addressed our sin and asked the young man to apologize.

We forgave him; however, with minor restrictions imposed by the staff, he continued to intimidate our child during Sunday services to the point where our child was fearful of going to church.  The pastors involved had little to say concerning this as it didn’t appear to be a priority for them.

In October 2007, we discover child-B had been molested.  The molestation had occurred 5 years earlier.  Our child revealed to us what had happened only after being hospitalized 7 days for cutting and suicidal thoughts.  We eventually found out through our child’s counseling sessions that fear and shame were the two main elements for not telling us about this sooner.   Cutting was our child’s way of dealing with misguided guilt and self-loathing.

We then contacted the Police Department and pressed charges.  The detective assigned to the case came to the house and listened to our child’s story.  The young man confessed the crime to pastor SW (CJ’s son-in-law). We were given the impression that pastor DH had also heard the confession.  Two and a half years later in March 2010, we were told he did not hear the confession.  Pastor LG (our brother-in-law) was also in the loop as we had asked him to supply information requested by the detective but no information was given.  Pastor LG said to me, “Have them send the request to us in writing.”  The detective told us later on that Fairfax had been “uncooperative” in the investigation…. a fact they later denied.

During the investigation, pastor DH told us they “had a dilemma” because they were caring for the young man and his family.  There was no visible concern shown during this time for our child by the staff including our brother-in-law and his family.  No inquiring phone calls or emails.  Our child had just been discharged from the hospital.  When you leave a Sovereign Grace church for disagreeing with or challenging leadership in any way, all relationships you once had there are severed.

Sometime during the following months, my wife noticed her sister (wife of pastor LG) not speaking about anything associated with our child’s legal case.  She would consistently change the subject when our child was mentioned.  This led to a meeting we initiated with pastor LG in January 2008.  As no other logical explanation for the silence could be seen, we asked him 3 times if he had advised his wife not to discuss with her sister our child’s case.  3 times he answered no.  We were told in a future meeting by pastor VH that pastor LG was in fact legally instructed to inform his wife not to discuss the case with her sister for 2 days so that the police could complete their investigation.  When this was brought up to the leadership, our questions were ignored.  Pastor LG lied to us and was not held accountable.

As a result of our own research we became aware of the fact that pastor LG’s wife was not covered under Virginia’s clergy privilege statute.  According to the legal process, she could have been liable for any information she had regarding the case, and therefore could have been called to testify in court on our child’s behalf.  Pastor LG (our child’s uncle) put great effort into avoiding this possibility.   The truth is that this scenario presented a conflict of interest to pastor LG and members of the Fairfax staff as they were caring for the young man and his family as pastor DH had mentioned.  Exactly why this presented a conflict is a mystery.

The trial took place in March 2008.  Prior to the trial, not knowing how the young man would plead, we asked pastor DH to come with pastor SW ready to give testimony on our child’s behalf if needed.  Pastor DH made it known to us they were not coming to the courthouse.  I explained to him if the young man pleaded not guilty, our child would then have to get up in front of the court and reveal the entire ordeal along with answering questions from the attorneys.  It didn’t matter, they still weren’t coming.  His response to us was, “I have my church’s reputation to consider.” Not sure what pastor DH meant by this statement.  In a future meeting with the Fairfax pastors, he claimed not remembering making the “church’s reputation” statement and had no recollection of emphasizing the fact that he wasn’t coming to the courthouse.  I called the detective and asked her to issue a subpoena for both pastors to appear in court.  Fairfax would later claim there was no need for us to request a subpoena because one had been issued months before.  It wouldn’t have made any difference if we knew this information or not.  Pastor DH expressed to us they weren’t coming.  They also stated in a future meeting they knew the young man would plead guilty therefore coming to the courthouse wasn’t necessary.  In reality, there was no way of knowing how he would plead.  Nevertheless, he was not held accountable for this and it was put back on us.

Pastor’s DH and SW were at the courthouse for the trial.  Pastor LG came a few minutes before the trial and left.  His wife did not come.  She also didn’t make any attempts to call her sister during the days leading up to the trial.  My wife was abandoned by her family.  The young man pleaded guilty to a felony.…. Our child did not have to get up and speak to the court.

A short time after the trial, my wife attempted to communicate to her sister the hurt, frustration and lack of care she experienced from her sister and family and it was put back on my wife.

What followed during the next 2 years included a series of meetings, phone calls and emails involving Fairfax and Covenant Life leadership, 2 mediators, and an SGM pastor from South Carolina.

In December 2008, our child (Child-A) now 18 at the time, was greatly affected by Noel’s story after reading it on the blogs.  Our adult child contacted CJ Mahaney and asked him what SGM had to say about this.  Not sure what the response was however, our adult child also described to CJ what our family had endured from the Fairfax staff and as a result a meeting was arranged.  We met with CJ and he listened to our story.  He was grieved by our experience and asked permission to contact the Fairfax staff.  We asked him if he had any knowledge of our story.  He said he did not.  Over the next few weeks we received emails from him, thanking us for the opportunity to talk to us.  He assured us that the Fairfax staff desired to meet and discuss these important issues with us.

In February 2009, the first meeting was set up at our church with 5 pastors from the Fairfax church, CJ, and a neutral third party attending on our behalf.  Two days before the meeting pastor LG appears at our door wanting to apologize to our child.  We had not seen nor heard from him or his family for 11 months.  We asked him what specifically he wanted to apologize for and couldn’t get a straight answer.  He wouldn’t answer our questions.  Given the state of emotional torment of our child and to block any further confusion, we decided it would not have been in our child’s best interest and said no.    

During the meeting, the pastors apologized for not caring for us and poor leadership but avoided our questions.  We left the meeting confused and with a new list of questions.  A few days later, we discovered that CJ had given our neutral third party a check for $5,000……. 

A short time after, CJ urged us to begin meeting with pastor MM to iron out our difficulties with pastor LG and his family.

It is important to mention here that although we agreed to meet with pastor MM, we were well aware of Fairfax’s intentions to separate the mishandled sex abuse issue from the personal concerns we had with Pastor LG.  The opportunity to minimize the situation to a “family disagreement” had presented itself.  They could now step away from the spotlight of “sex abuse issues in the Fairfax church and the way leadership typically responds,” and let the light shine elsewhere.

A number of unresolved issues with pastor LG going back many years still remain.  Some of which are extremely painful for my wife and me. However, in March 2009, we began meeting with pastor MM with hopes of seeing some accountability leading to possible reconciliation with pastor LG.  We presented pastor MM with a list of questions for pastor LG. After 4 months of meetings and numerous emails, none of our questions were answered.  At the final meeting pastor MM said to us, “I find pastor LG to be a man of integrity.” And then he dismissed us.  (Simple logic would say, if pastor LG is a man of integrity, we must be liars)  We were stunned….Fairfax had once again put the issue back on us.

In a future meeting with the pastors, pastor MM apologized for not answering our questions concerning pastor LG ….but still didn’t answer them.

We contacted CJ and expressed our dissatisfaction with the meetings and final conclusion.  He suggested Peacemakers.  We declined.  He then offered to have SGM pastor JB from South Carolina step into the arena.  Our options were diminishing but we were not going to walk away from this.  For the next 8 months we spoke to pastor JB on the phone at least twice a month.  Our conversations focused on the “family disagreement,” and Fairfax’s response to sex abuse.  We had many questions regarding both topics.  Questions that had already been asked a number of times and not answered.  During our many conversations with Pastor JB, he assured us that Fairfax would now be handling sex abuse related issues differently.  After 8 months our questions for pastor LG and a few hard questions for Fairfax were still not answered.

There never were any changes made in how they handle sex abuse…our story proves the point.

In March 2010, a second meeting with Fairfax leadership had taken place.  Kenneth Maresco, Pastor JB, and Jim P., moderator for the SGM Refuge blog were also present.  We requested that pastor LG attend as well, but he declined. When questioned about this beforehand, pastor LG said, “I do not think my presence in the meeting would be helpful.” And Fairfax backed him up on this. The meeting was arranged in part as a follow-up from our time on the phone with pastor JB.  Some of our questions were answered however, a few of pastor JB’s answers had suggested that everything was just a big misunderstanding; that somehow we misinterpreted or perhaps judged motives incorrectly regarding both pastor LG and the Fairfax staff.  Also in this meeting pastor DH forgets important information and pastor VH reveals that pastor LG was in fact legally advised by their attorney’s back in October 2007.  But in the January 2008 meeting as mentioned above, pastor LG told us 3 times he did not tell his wife not to discuss our child’s case with her sister.  And Fairfax was ok with this.

In the same meeting the pastor’s would not let us ask any questions related to pastor LG. It appeared they did not want to deal with the fact that he had lied to us. However, they did want to apologize a second time for not caring for us and poor leadership.  We accepted their apologies but there were still unanswered questions.  But one hard question was answered; my wife asked pastor MM why they do not warn people at risk when a known sex felon is in their church. His response was, “that perpetrator could grow up and sue us for defamation of character.”  So in pastor MM’s mind, the possibility of being sued sometime in the future takes precedence over protecting children from known sex offenders.

An obvious pattern can be seen throughout the story; the pastors were eager to apologize for not caring for us and poor leadership expecting us to forgive, but they would not answer our hard questions.  And for some reason they were protecting pastor LG from having to account for the issues we presented.  Our forgiveness was premature.

In May 2010, we accused pastor LG of lying, specifically but not limited to the January 2008 meeting we had with him, and 2 consecutive apology letters he had written that were filled with deceptive statements.  This led to an “accusation against an elder.”  Fairfax’s solution to this was to hire an outside third party mediator to settle things. A professional conciliatory Christian mediator.  He was thoroughly impressed with the fact that CJ Mahaney was involved with this.  We reluctantly agreed to do this and had regrets later on.  I challenged Fairfax to show us where in the bible do we find that an accusation against an elder is brought to an outside mediator who gets paid for his services?  They ignored the question.  They were steadfast in maintaining that the struggles we had with the church and pastor LG stay separate and confined to a “family disagreement.” The reality is Fairfax had relinquished their responsibility in dealing with an accusation against an elder so they could walk away from the entire situation.  Maybe they were afraid of uncovering pastor LG’s pattern of deception.  We had 2 sessions totaling 9 hours in which pastor LG persisted in avoiding our questions and claimed not remembering key facts.  The mediator’s summation at the end was that pastor LG had not been deceptive and that we were “sinfully craving answers” according to James chapter 4.  We were put in the same category as murderer’s and idolaters!

How did we end up here?

We started out down this road as parents of 2 children who were molested and ended up being thrown into the ring with murderer’s and idolaters!

Only SGM could orchestrate something like this…..

Fairfax was indifferent to the fact that we disagreed with the mediator’s conclusions.    

In June 2010, we had our 3rd and final meeting with Fairfax, initiated by Kenneth Maresco and pastor JB as a follow-up to the March 2010 meeting.  Kenneth Maresco was not happy with the pastor’s apologies in the March meeting.   Apparently they needed to be a little more sincere.  They were given the opportunity to apologize once again for the same things they had previously apologized for, not caring for us and poor leadership.  But this time, the apologies were more detailed.

A short time after the meeting, our final interaction with SGM was at hand.  As a last ditch attempt to at least work out our family difficulties, I asked pastor LG if he would agree to meet with us and another SG pastor. He said, “that aint happening.” And Fairfax backed him up on this. We wanted a person he worked with to witness his response to our questions. We asked CJ, Kenneth Maresco, and pastor VH to intervene and be the witness and they all declined.

Pastor LG’s evasive behavior supported by a shield of protection from Fairfax is a symptom of a much deeper problem in their governmental structure…

The Fairfax church has a history of treating victims of sex abuse and their families in similar ways mentioned in our story.  We know 2 other cases and have talked with someone who mentioned knowing 5… all involving the Fairfax church.  Noel and Grizzly were told by pastor MM their story had inconsistencies… “Inconsistency” is an SGM euphemism for lying.  What pastor MM really meant to say was Noel and Grizzly were lying.

In the minds of SGM leadership they hear from God and tell us what God is saying.  If what ordinary people discern fails to line up with their program, they are dismissed.  This way of thinking allows them to continuously reinforce their spiritual agenda on a congregation conditioned to think they are being truly humble by accepting this.  Where in the New Testament do we find this type of church government?


“Who can endure a doctrine which would allow only dentists to say whether our teeth were aching, only cobblers to say whether our shoes hurt us, and only governments to tell us whether we were being well governed?”                                                                               C.S. Lewis


The faith and well-being of child-B had been severely affected by the molestation and 3 year ordeal with SGM.  Our child’s professional counselors have documented the adverse affects of family abandonment and how this contributes to thoughts of guilt and shame in a young child’s mind.  Our child’s perception of a loving God had been distorted.

My wife feels the pain of family abandonment plus the abandonment of a church she was a part of for 12 years.

Child-A is grown up and doing very well.

For some reason Fairfax had chosen not to deal directly and not dig deeper into the claims we made concerning pastor LG.  He was not held accountable for lying to us.  Fairfax hired a mediator who ultimately made the decision as to who was lying and who was telling the truth.

A few of the pastors expressed genuine sorrow for the way our child and my wife and I were treated.  Their apologies are nullified because in the end we were the one’s “sinfully craving answers” – murderers and idolater’s according to the paid mediator’s assessment.

We assumed Fairfax was in agreement with this.

Fairfax would say our questions for pastor LG were answered.  Here’s the problem; we weren’t there to hear his answers….  They were now finally able to close the door and move on to more important things.

The Fairfax staff told us they have made significant changes in the way they now handle sex abuse issues in their church.  Assuming this is true, we applaud their efforts.

The question is how will Fairfax handle their past failures?  Will they publicly confess their past sin before our family and the other families who have been hurt by their failure to lead, care, and protect, or will they remain silent and hope no one else comes forward.  Will any restitution be made to the families involved?

In light of the damage done, has anyone involved disqualified themselves from professional ministry?

The clergy privilege statute exempts church leadership in Virginia from having to divulge any information to the authorities regarding sex crimes committed by church members.  We had contacted a Virginia state senator who had been in the process of pursuing legislation to change this law.

The actions of Fairfax leadership in handling sex abuse in their church are good examples why this law needs to be changed.  The senator from Virginia heard our story and agreed.

606 comments to Wallace’s Story

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  1. acme
    May 23rd, 2011 at 12:37 pm

    Here is the link to the transcript and audio of CLC’s family meeting last night. I think it’s a step in the right direction.

  2. Roadwork
    May 23rd, 2011 at 1:25 pm

    Oh yeah, I remember this message now. I heard one very similar to it….
    Given by DH after BP stepped down at Fairfax. How’s that hope and change workin’ for ya?

    How about a real elder board if they really want to hear from “members”?

    I think everyone in attendance should have been given a BS filter at the door.

  3. Unassimilated
    May 23rd, 2011 at 2:13 pm

    “the role of the apostle is to ensure that the Gospel is preached and applied in the daily life of the church. Concentrating attention on the writings of Luke and Paul, one might conclude that apostles are devoted to church planting, being set apart for the Gospel and sent forth with the Gospel, that they might protect the Gospel and build with the Gospel.” – CJ Mahaney 2006

    “The apostolic team, for those of you new to Sovereign Grace Ministries, was for many years what we called the team of pastors who help us facilitate church planting, international ministry, and church care. But over time, we discovered the name confused more people than it helped, so now we’re considering alternatives.” SGM Ministries via

    “The success of leadership is dependent upon the proper submission and obedience of the people to their leaders. If the people aren’t obeying and submitting, the leader’s ministry cannot be fruitful. – CJ Mahaney from “The Happiest Place on Earth”

    “If you went back and listened to past messages, I don’t think you’d find us teaching, “There’s only one godly way to do this or that.” But we could have worked harder to highlight the differing viewpoints that still honored the principle.” -Josh Harris


    Doublespeak is language that deliberately disguises, distorts, or reverses the meaning of words. Doublespeak may take the form of euphemisms (e.g., “downsizing” for layoffs), making the truth less unpleasant, without denying its nature. It may also be deployed as intentional ambiguity, or reversal of meaning (for example, naming a state of war “peace”). In such cases, doublespeak disguises the nature of the truth, producing a communication bypass.

    “In 1985, I published a public apology through New Wine magazine because I felt that my teachings had been misused on some occasions.” – Charles Simpson

    “If we elevate a single practice and invest it with the authority of biblical principle, we can place a rule or burden on people that isn’t actually commanded in God’s Word.” Josh Harris

  4. Mike
    May 23rd, 2011 at 7:51 pm

    Amen, @acme!!

  5. andy
    May 24th, 2011 at 4:36 am

    You know I have probably spent 15 hours reading over this site and a few others, and it seems that the abuses go way back to day ONE, all the way up to the present. What I don’t get is how they have managed to evade judicial review of their conduct in the form of civil litigation. I read a book that told of Benny Phililps ordering the church to not attend this young woman’s wedding (this is back when Benny was the big boy at Fairfax, and before his daughter ran off with an unbeliever). I read of children being sexually molested and their “dear uncle” attempting to protect the church’s reputation instead of his nephew. Now lets talk about how bizarre that is. I’m an uncle, and if some perv touched them inappropriately I would be waiting for him with a baseball bat or maybe a Glock & a ski mask. This worthless uncle and poorly qualified pastor chose to protect his Church’s image rather than his own family. To me he is just as much of a perv for even thinking that way as the predator. I hope these children realize that they have until their 25Th birthday to initiate legal action within the Commonwealth against their former church,worthless uncle and the predator since they were minors at the time of the assault. The church and dear old uncle worthless could very easily be sued for malpractice. The Clergy protection ACT will not stop a simple TORT case, and these kids have a great one.

    Then there is this lady that was disfellowshipped for not being submissive. She asked them to defend their positions with scripture and that got her declared an unbeliever ? Any church should be washing her feet and welcoming her into their church. She did exactly what Paul told us to do in Galatians. Unfortunately the collection of non-seminary grads that make up the Sovereign Grace movement (i have a hard time calling it a church at this point)couldn’t deal with a woman raising a perfectly valid BIBLICAL point. That is almost as sick as what they did with Wallace’s children.

    Then there is a case where a wife was told to shun her husband because he wanted to leave their “church”. Where does it end and after all the abuse, all the defamation and discrediting of people that have left SGM WHY HAS NO ONE SUED THEM. I did a bit of looking and I can’t find zip in the way of litigation against these ecclesiastical thugs. Why ? What are people scared of?
    I can think of about 25 attorneys in the same zip code as SGM that would be more than happy to litigate some of these issues. There is no Biblical prohibitions on suing an entity or corporation, or the enabler of a sexually criminal for that matter. How many wounded people do we need to know before this cult-like franchise of extortion and emotional blackmail is stopped.

    I still think a informational picket is in order. There needs to be wider exposure of these issues. Right across from the Fairfax location is a very long blacktopped sidewalk. That is property of the State. Perfectly lawful to assemble there about 1/2 before their main service starts with huge signs warning the community of their practices. Then you do the same up in Gaithersburg. Repeat 3-6 times a year and word gets around. I have over 1700 press contacts. With a emailed press release on the picketing there might even be some media coverage. That is what is needed exposure. Sure Cj would have a cry fest and solicit sympathy cards from his brained washed followers, but maybe some people would stop and think. Maybe some family would skip visiting SGM and find a healthy, well balanced church where people will love them.

  6. Picketingscardeycat
    May 24th, 2011 at 7:39 am

    :clap :goodpost Thank you! Thank You! Thank You, Andy!!!! Our family has been ruined by them. I hope we can assemble a group and picket but I have to honest with you, I’m scared of them. I can’t figure out why, but I am. My daughter isn’t. I think she would lead a picket because she is so disgusted with them.

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